Monday, January 18, 2010

Two things

Two things have been polluting my mind since last night. Both causing me sleep deprivation and ADD at work:

Drapes and the differentiating factors between now and then.

Let me explain...

The husband and I are getting ready for the big move this weekend. We still need curtains. I originally wanted some wooden roman shades, but seeing as my windows are not standard sizes, that won't be happening any time soon. Custom is just too pricey.

I have one large window behind my "bay window" and another that looks out to the front of the house. I also have a small window on my entry-way door and two small square windows that are located on either side of the fireplace.

So far I think I have narrowed it down to navy blue drapes on the two large windows and some sort of valance on the door and the small square windows. I want to do a different color on the small windows and I would like to incorporate red. I thought plaid, but I am not ready to commit to plaid.

Deciding on window treatments is almost as stressful as picking out wall colors.

On to differentiating factors...

I have been racking my brain trying to figure out what is different about the last times I lost weight and now trying to lose weight.

The first time I lost a substantial amount of weight was the summer between my junior and senior year of high school. I lost 35 pounds in a month and a half. Of course I began gaining weight my freshman year of college.

More recently, when I was up in pounds, I lost 10 pounds. Again, I lost the weight during the summer between my junior and senior year of college.

Now, I am back up. Way up. I can't figure out what is so different. I want to lose weight. I know what needs to be done to lose weight, but I just can't seem to muster up enough will power to do it.

Here are the Circumstances for high school:
  • Dating, for pretty much the first time
  • A little more popular (as I was dating a football player and quit band)
  • Guys began noticing me
  • Determined to look good for senior pictures
  • Rededicated my life to Christ
  • Excited to be graduating
  • Planned on a senior trip

My diet regimen for high school:

  • Ate only fruits and veggies for nearly 2 months
  • Walked every day for 40 minutes

Circumstances for college:

  • Excited to be graduating
  • Proud of myself for finishing
  • Really in to fashion and "What not to Wear"
  • Attending a Christian college
  • Took up leading worship at youth group
  • Was not working

Diet regimen for college:

  • Took up running (up to 3 miles a day)
  • Ate small controlled portions

I don't really remember much about that summer. College was so stressful and I have a really large mental block on most of the experience.

Circumstances now:

  • Working 40+ hours a week
  • Remodeling a home
  • Recovering emotionally from a stressful life events
  • Spiritually and (nearly) physically disconnected from church

Diet now:

  • Eat what I want and how much I want
  • Pretty much sedentary now

Yuck! I feel so disgusting. I think I see a small pattern. Both times I was able to lose weight, I had some sort of pride in myself and in my appearance. I had a goal that I was excited about and could almost feel the end results. I was also connected with God.

Writing this blog has actually been really eye opening. Wow, the pattern isn't small at all. It's huge! Now what the heck do I do with the info?

God Bless,


1 comment:

  1. Well I think you have very good knowleadge of home decor and colour combination!and the other thing you want to loss your weight than first take a look for your life style!just first be work on time and take dinner and complete sleep.than take advise from any diet planner,it will helps you more that change your life and food style.
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